I, like many others, went to the CCS stadium today, more in hope than expectation. Not only that, having gone to the Liberty for the 1st derby this season, I did not have the same level of anticipation and excitement as games v the Jacks in years gone by. That day, we were shown up by our neighbours in almost every respect. On the field, it was clear, that they clearly wanted the game more than we did. And off the field we were outsung by the JB's. It didn't help that it was a shocking performance, it could easily have been 3 or 4 nil. Today we showed more commitment and, at times played better football. But let's face it we probably played as well as the current squad and management are capable of, and we still did not score a goal. Swansea play better football and have a much more successful youth and development system than us. That's why they are able to attract some of the best Premier League talent from top clubs ( Brewster started and Guehi was on the bench ) whilst on the same day it was confirmed that we had made a bid for Kiefer Moore. This is a typical Cardiff signing. If we do get him for between 2 and 3 milllion, you can bet your house that it will be the most he will ever be transferred for and in 2 years we will let him go on a free. It's also evidence that, at heart, Harris is a long ball man. I recently posted that Harris should go and we needed to get Bellamy in. I was slammed. But my post was not a knee jerk reaction to the embarrasment of the QPR defeat. It was about the need to build a new Cardiff way with people who have Cardiff in the hearts and who believe in youth development. Swansea's MOM today was Cabango. He is a Cardiff lad. Along with Rodon and Roberts he is likely to be a mainstay of the Wales side in the coming years. Yet we have nothing in the near pipeline and we have not produced a senior Wales regular for a long time. I would honestly prefer to spend 3 or 4 years in the Championship building the club with local talent and an attractive playing style, than go hell bent on promotion with journeyman players with no link to our club. Not that the current mob will get us anywhere near the Prem. There is nobody on the Board who truly understands football. And even our CEO spends little time in the club. For the 1st time in 20 years I am seriously questioning the worth of a season ticket next year. I want a club I can be proud of, not one that is an emabarrasment.